Only Jesus

When I am in doubt
When I am ashamed
When I have done wrong

You are the way
You are the truth
You are the life

When I feel darkness surround me
When death is haunting
When my doubts assail me

You are the way
You are the truth
You are the life

Forever I will say, You are the way, the truth and life
Can anyone come to you? A part from the father's consent.

Come he says, come away
Come sing to my heart.
For I find strength in the presence
I see the light
That you are the only way,
the only truth the only life.

Expressions of Pain

After reading a book produced by photoginx, YWAM Kona called 'Act Here Love Now' and having my heart torn for the reality of what happens around the world, the Lord helped me express my pain through a few poems.

Mouth

Behind the faces are the pain, scars and lies,
words have killed yet words can revive.
It only takes a word, a touch, a sign to make things right.
What are you doing with your life?

Do you speak truth, or do you speak lies
every one of them builds on top of the other.
Yet one truth can set a person free to dance, to sing, to make music for the King.
How are you changing lives?

Through prayer and petition through giving life
each second counts, words are life,
so be careful little mouth what you speak

1st world Suffering

Rejection, pain, bitterness and grief all parts of the 1st word life
We struggle with them on a daily existence, but what will set us free?

What is the opposite of these things what is beauty in your eyes?
Acceptance, health, forgiveness, and joy these are the things that will change your life.

It is in the eye of the beholder that beauty is found, who is looking?
Is it not the Lord God Almighty from heaven he looks down.

Lord God Almighty what then do you see as beautiful?
My Sons and Daughters acknowledging me with all their hearts living righteously, devoted to me.

Black Skin, White Skin Beautiful in his Sight.

Tears held in, tears let out,
crying out for the ones without
the untouchables, the unseen, the wounded and criminally unseen.

What to do, how to act yet I come to the fact,
My life is joyful not in my eyes but in the ones that watch me walk by.

White skin, black skin beauty as its own
the Lord God made us beautiful all on our own,
radiating, dazzling in his light
one day Jesus will be coming what a great sight.

Is this Really ME?

New Zealand runs in my bones, it pushes me to go on,
 seeing the blood life of New Zealanders causes my heart to burn.
 A deep longing for it to experience the Lord, and his great love.
 The whole mass, from North to South from the east to the west.

I cry out for an encounter for my nation.
 It can't be done some say,
But I know the word it says all things are possible,
 nothing can get in the way,
Of God changing a nation in a day.
Sweeping hearts with fire, the flames start within.

 Desire for more desire for greater things stir my heart to sing.
When Lord will you break in,
 how do I position my heart for him to move,
 When will the day be when I truly know
 that this is what God has called me to be?
 I learn about his goodness, his father-ness
 and know all I need to be is his daughter.

Speak sometimes, speak few things,
 the presence of the people, a person sobers the heart to repentance.
Peace, Peace I say to you, you bring peace.
Fellowship and community, perceptive and hungering
all things that I'm pondering,
do I have what it takes to make it though this day?

 Is it me or is it the Lord that causes this pain,
this longing for more, how do I live this day
pleasing and holy to the Lord?
Do I ever makes his day, Do I even feel him near?
Just one touch will this really satisfy?
Time and sessions pass me by,
 Is my mundane life all that I'm meant to be?

A word in season, a knowing of oneself,
identity lies within. Who I am is who he is,
 reflecting a mothers heart,
 a gentle child, a lovers desire.
 But for what? Do I really impact lives?
Do I really speak words of truth?
The ups and downs the going around, what is it all for?

My heart is displayed before the King,
Open and wounded from life's attacks,
My heart lives on my sleeve, for all to see the meaning of life itself.
An open vessel, and treasured possession,
Is this really me?

I Found Where I Belong

I went away to be birthed
I went away to be nourished with truth.
I went away for my hunger longed for it.
I went away to come alive.

Now being awakened, I carry a new thing
A thing to be birthed, a large package;
It will be delivered to a people yet known.
A burden for souls to be awakened
To rise from the ashes and step into beauty.

To know oneself is to know ones maker.
So follow me to the merry tune.
Skipping and singing towards the King.
Come away to be romanced,
By the King of all Kings.

Your beloved one awaits
Your beloved one longs,
The beloved one pursues your heart.
A noble theme,
an encounter of the heart,
Just one word
Just one phrase
Just one touch will melt your heart.

Don't hold back, never let go,
Don't let distraction, shame or envy make you go
From the arms of mercy,
the arms of love.
Come to him who calls you his own.

For your identity is in him,
He alone knows and sees you.
He is your protection,
Your sense of hope.

Come all ye who are weary,
Run to him,
Bound over the hills.
For he awaits, he longs,
He desires you to belong.

With a Joy Unending

Death is a passing in His story
A journey that is well devoted, well loved, well accomplished in life.
Leaving this body of sickness, the disease riddled with sin.
But oh the joy she now has singing at the feet of her King.

Oh the joy of living fully for the one her heart has longed to see.
Eyes wide open now, beholding the beauty of this Man.
Eternity waits for those who have a heart
A focused devotion to the King.

Eternity with the one named Love, Joy abounds in His nearness.
Joy is gladness overflowing, Love resounds like a symbol, crashing to and fro.
Her life was a devotion, her life was a nearness to her Lord, her life a resounding symbol of joy.

Come close to the one who knows you,
Give him all you have, for His delight is in you,
His joy overflows to you.
His peace, His love,
His security is found
Only in the presence of the Lord.

So draw near my weary and sad ones,
be comforted with a joy unending.

Just one Flame

The yearnings and burnings the longing goes on,
 day after day face after face, word upon word,
 What is it that you want to say?

Ravish my heart, stir it with fire,
 The embers of the fire are starting to burn.
Sing to me and dance by me for your nearness is what I long for.
Just one word, just one touch causes my heart to burn.

Words go forth and words go up, returning with an outcome.
 Will it be life or will it be death for the words will cut the heart of flesh.

Come Lord Jesus, Come to my aid,
 Refresh me, renew me cause a flame,
A burning desire for you. Only you satisfy, only you remain,
 only you sustain my heart with just one flame.

A book review that touches the heart

It’s not Business its personal- by Bob Sorge.

A review by Renee Pearce

It’s not Business its Personal is convicting and thought provoking as to the way we live our lives in community and relationships with others. Knowing how Jesus sees us his bride and his affections for her gives me deep joy in my heart that there is someone out there that does and will stand on my behalf, will rescue me, by keeping me accountable and disciplining me to seek the bridegroom and not take my attention and affection from him.

As young girls we longed for our prince charming to come sweep us away so that we will live happily ever after because with him there will be no fears or things to come between us, that will make or stop us from knowing the affections of our prince. Jesus is a Jealous bridegroom and we are his bride but we are also; when we are leaders in ministry; the friend of the bridegroom. Picture a wedding the groom is at the front of the church the best man or friend of the bridegroom is there right beside him. He is there to encourage and support the groom to make him look good. The bride walks down the aisle and the grooms attention is focused solely on the bride, if the friend of the bride tries to get the attention of the bridegroom or even the bride or spoil his or her moment, don’t you think that the bridegroom will get really annoyed. We as the bridegroom’s friend are not meant to take the affection or attention of the bride off the bridegroom otherwise that would mean that you are competition and not a friend. So we need to point people to Jesus not ourselves, do not take what is his. He is the King of all Kings he is the ruler of all do you not think that he will bring justice against you. So when you’re in ministry you need to be aware, of whose affections you’re looking to, to validate who you are. God the father has chosen us mere humans to be the bride of Christ the marriage arrangements have already been made, Christ paid the bride price and we are just waiting for the groom to come back for the bride.

If we are the bride then why are we the bridegroom’s friend too, isn’t that the Holy Spirits job? Thoughts about how the Holy Spirit is a spirit, and likes to use humans to display and speak through makes me come to the conclusion that we are the friend too, but then isn’t this about one bride and one groom? How does the bride; being a number of people be one, communicate or know who the groom is?

This book convicts and speaks to the heart of why we do things. Are we in ministry to get a name for ourselves? What is our hearts response to others being blessed when we are still on the same track going around the mountain? If we are the vessels God uses to show his glory and bring more people into the Kingdom then we have such an important job to look to the groom for his affections and attention, rather than other people. But you might ask what if the bride also shows you affection or attention? Humility is the way to go thank them but point them to Jesus, if we can’t do this then why are we in ministry? It’s a hard question to ask but we need to get to the root of it; is our heart in the right place or are we letting our flesh rule us, believing that only you matter. It’s not about you it’s about God!! He made us to be an image bearer of himself, to love on and display himself through. In return we get to have the God of all creation, the King of all Kings and Lord of all Lord’s affection and attention and live with him forever. This is only a temporary time on earth in which we get to show him off to others, telling others of his great affection for us. So what will you do now to show others your groom?

The father asks us to do different things give up or let go of people or titles or wealth that we think is our own. Abraham gave up his son, Job his wealth and family, Esther her reputation and life, Mary her inheritance and stability for living, and all for what? God tests us to see what is really in our hearts, for us to be able to see our true nature to see who he sees us as. Character building or the unveiling of our true selves can and will be tested time and again to see the purity and cleanness of our hearts. God himself takes our relationship personally making commitments and covenants with us when we mere humans are not able to keep them, and he knows that. What a generous and loving God he is. So is your relationship personal or are you just in it for the attention or the money?  Choose wisely for it will be revealed at the end of time who and what you chose, whether by naivety or knowing the truth will it set you free?  Are you blowing your own trumpet or the one who calls you friend?

Many questions have risen after reading this book and this is good for it makes me think and ask questions to Holy Spirit the one who lives in me and knows my heart. He will speak the truth and nothing but the truth.