A blank canvas and a sheer cliff jump This February 2013 school we are running our normal DTS with 3 different tracks; Ocean to Mount, Intimacy to Impacts and ANZAC; have students from 17 different nationalities and more students then we have had previously. Chuck in a new location and running a school by faith; because the fees are free. And you have a canvas that has a bit of paint here and there. You can’t quite see what the picture is but at the end of 5 months we will see I believe a journey of faith and testimonies of beauty, of love, of rejoicing and celebrations, of breakthroughs and profound success. As one of the speakers says if you’re loved by God and you love God back you are a profound success, all the rest is extra. DTS Update: The last few weeks since the school has started I have been so busy organising the hospitality team, making sure we have all the welcome baskets and enough rooms to accommodate all the 62 students plus staff. How amazing that God kept the door open for other students to join even though we had already started the school. Then to start learning about my new role as registrar, emailing people, organising speaker’s accommodation. Also restructuring with a team different things to make us more efficient. And it’s all to the Glory and Honour of Jesus; and in the midst I feel like I have been on a cliff face trying to find a part-time job to pay rent and pay for my expenses; struggling with not being able to provide for myself and relying on the kindness of others and the faithfulness of God. But that time of stress of jumping to an unreachable ledge, a hold in the craves; will soon be over, clarity is just around the corner. My hand almost has its grasp on a sustainable ledge. Oh how the clarity on how to do my job in YWAM with excellence, and to encourage those around me to strive for their best is coming. While all along journeying with my beloved by my side, speaking sweet truths to me, and showing his goodness by blessing me with hope. Testimonies: I want to share two testimonies that God has done for me actually only in the past few weeks. On a Saturday night moving into Sunday I watched a mini -series with a friend called North and South. It’s somewhat like pride and prejudice about a girl in the 1800’s and she fights for justice of those poorer than herself. The main guy is a factory owner and is a hard manager but there is a softness to him. The main girl’s first interaction with the main guy is somewhat abrasive and mean, so she creates a perception of who he is.And when he trys to propose she denies him. Throughout the movie the characters are faced with situations where their beliefs, work ethics and pride are challenged. Misunderstandings, rejection and social etiquette are a huge agenda. In the end they talk to each other and express their feelings of love and come to an understanding; how romantic. It reminds me so much of our relationship with Jesus. How even in this world where there is so much injustice and hurt Jesus reaches out his hand and calls our names; even if we reject him he still gives out his love and gives you a choice to come to him. Oh how his love for us is so great, it says in John that the fathers love is a huge torrent for his son, and that same love is also given to us from the Son and the Father. And we too also have the capacity to receive and give this same torrent of love. After finishing watching this movie I walked home with a smile of contentment and a giddy smile because I know I am loved, and have the privilege to love him back. That night at church after prophesy class I felt the spirit in me and got many visions about different things, Praise God. The preacher talked about breakthrough and being set free and gave an alter call, I went up the front and received prayer. I was prophesied over that I was made to break chains to be free, to fly and soar. That as I contend in prayer God really listens to me and that I will speak in front of authorities to heal, intercede and proclaim the Good News. I also got prayed for that God would breakthrough my faithlessness of trust in his provision for me. Soon after the church I got a missed call and it was a lady wanting me to come in for an interview. I have now had the interview and I have not been successful, but this will not let me be dis-hearted because I know that God has a plan for me and he will provide all that I need. Having this happen has totally made my faith in God grow, I’m believing his promises and holding onto that fact that his truth, his word says I will provide for you because it is for his pleasure and good will to do this for all those that believe and trust in him. A testimony from the DTS: one student has been set free from a class ‘A’ drug addiction and another set free from self- hatred. This week we are learning about the culture of revivial and breaking off pacivity, fear, rejection, unbelief and so many other things that hinder us from spreading the love. Praise God, Thank you Lord for these truths. Prayer and closing words: This is just the beginning of DTS and although we don’t know exactly what is going to happen we have big expectations that God will pour out his Spirit here in Tauranga bringing revelation and freedom to many people not just on the DTS but in this city and across to the nations for the Glory of Jesus. Thank you for your prayers and support please continue to pray for Jesus to be revealed in the hearts of the people I am in contact with. That God would reveal a new revelation of His love and hope to this generation. That he will provide all my needs and my lack of faith will grow stronger. And breakthrough and living in a counter cultural world, would be a common thing here in NZ.

Consecration to Freedom

Consecration to Freedom

 Being set a part (sanctified) for a time; prohibiting something for a season; can be hard but also very rewarding. My life has been full of ups and downs broken relationships, hurts, wounds, plasters and bruises in all sorts of metaphoric ways. I chose to setting aside for a season the urge to date; it seems pretty simply to me I wanted to focus on God get that relationship stronger and more concrete. And wow what an experience it is. The battle of my mind to run ahead of God saying 'I know the way', It's like a small child running ahead of a parent but looking back at the parent strolling along at a leisurely pace, the parent watching them but all along knowing the way to go when to turn and when to pace themselves. The child is oblivious to the true knowledge the parent has. Living in a 'its my world, I'll do what I want,' society has it's pros and cons, more and more advertising tells you, 'you need this to be successful . But if we look to the father, God the one who created us, if we truly understood that we are loved by God and if we love him back then we are a profound success, everything else is an extra.

 Getting back to the consecration season, before I did my DTS in Feb 2012 I had already commitment to not dating for a year. (I completed this last year) And now I've extended it to another 6 months so that my heart can keep being built up and grow in intimacy with my husband in heaven, Jesus. I know that if God brings a man into my life and he indicates that he wants to marry me then he will wait until this commitment is over. (just so you know there isn't anybody yet). From this consecration season the Lord has given to me much healing and freedom in 'whose I am' in the relationships that hurt and wounded me. I'm more confident to pursue friendships with both genders without the fear or pain entering into the relationship. I have seen with my own eyes the way guys are meant to treat woman as friends/relationships through this community at YWAM Bethlehem.

 I believe in this season 'a new year' God has been revealing to me what he has been doing to my heart while I have served and meditated on his word. Such freedom came when I was answered a question, a longing of my heart. I always wondered who I was? But I found that I was asking the wrong question its not about who I am but whose I am? And in a spiritual sense I have learnt that I am a daughter of the King of Kings, beautiful, lovely, caring, an image bearer and reflector of God; through the characteristics he has placed in each of us of himself. Oh the depths of his heart towards his children his thoughts are numerous too many to count. The joy of my heart is to hear what he thinks of me and I pray that you too would ask daily, what he wants to say to you. He's not just some guy that is a master over you he wants to be your friend, lover, husband, companion and so much more. All of this he wants to be for you too.

 I'm going to be vulnerable with you and share my latest thought from my heart something that I'm pondering about is 'who is suppose to look after me.' Who is suppose to make sure I'm ok, eating properly having 'me' time? I know this is my responsibilty in part but shouldn't there be someone else that is suppose to be in my life to help as I give love. I pour out the love I have received from God and caring for the people God has placed in the community here at YWAM Bethlehem. I don't get tired of giving love spending time with people helping them find out whose they are, who they are and encountering the love of the father. Guiding, teaching them the truths I have learnt or am learning or can learn from them. I thrive off this passion this desire to see the best in people and pull it out in the safe environment at YWAM. Its so fulfilling to praise the name of Jesus daily with a community of radical lovers to do this job, even if I don't get paid for it, its worth it, its worth the sacrifice that I have made to not live comfortably in this world because I live for eternity not just this world. The reward is so much greater than anything that I can get in this world.

  I'm currently looking for a job and would love your pray for this and am in negotiations with a job at the moment so it would be sweet as if you could think and pray that the wisdom of God will be given to the manager of the business. I thank the Lord that he has placed me here for such a time as this to eat from his banquet table to be entertained by him. Not really knowing where he is leading me but knowing as I walk beside him at his pace believing and having faith; absolute trust; that his plans are perfect and he can see ahead of me and knows what to prepare me for, Oh God I delight in you, rejoice in your glory and declare your name as good. Thanks for reading if you have any feedback I would love to hear what you think about me being here at YWAM Bethlehem and all that God is doing in and through my life. For His Glory and the Delcaration of His Name