Its nearly Christmas time and I have done an update YAY

YWAM is a place where you can be open and honest with yourself God and others. Although it was 5 months of my life and now a bit longer I feel that God is and has been shaping me into the woman he has created me to be. Facing truths about life, love religiosity I come away for a short break between schools and reflect about all that has happened to me. I have become a lot more aware of my value in God and have seen things come true when I thought it could never happen. Like seeing the lie I told myself of never being able to be friends with guys broken and set free of the condemnation I placed on myself. So I suppose I have much more freedom in spirit and soul were I thought I was lost and couldn’t be found. My perception of myself has changed dramatically instead of feeling unworthy and always being my own enemy. I am more confident in how and why I judge myself. Setting the lies in front of me I pull them from the box one by one I rebuke them and throw them away. What I feed myself on is becoming a natural thing to consider. I have been challenged I have been stretched and my faith has increased. But it is all worth it to see and know that my king and my God is saying well done my good and faithful servant. Although I still struggle my life is and will never be the same again. With the help of YWAM God has pursued my heart my mind my soul and spirit to realised the depth and great satisfaction I find in the one who holds my heart and counts the days until we will meet face to face. Oh the longing and the depth of his love. Reality hits and my struggles are shown but think of what is already been done for you and walk in that identity walk in that kingdom. Worship the king pray to him and sing glory to the one that has gone before, that has made a way for our perfection. Embrace the God that spoke into being and breathe life. Kissing his own true flesh don’t you want it too? The talents and gifts he has placed in me shine a little brighter each day as they grow and display the beauty He has placed in me. My faith has been stretched having to rely on God my father to provide what a challenge what a feat but it was all worth it at his feet. So I encourage you to join with me to see where God wants me to be to encourage me and strengthen me. To see new depths of His love revealed through me. Which leads to a story of this man named Peter he was called by this man to follow him and so he did he was challenged and stretched he even had to take leaps of faith. One particular story of his was when he saw the Lord and said “if it is you Lord tell me to come out on the water” and Jesus says “Come.” And although he stumbled a bit and was afraid he took that first step and walked to where Jesus was. This story is similar to mine as I have stepped out in faith believing that God will provide ALL my needs. I have stepped out in faith and talked to people that I don’t know and who make me scared a him (this is big for me) One I was talking to a guy. Check. Two I talked to a stranger. Check.) God has encouraged me and helped me get over fear in this area of my life, praise the Lord. So to finish it off I want to leave you with some testimonies of outreach in NZ and the Philippines. “Tonight we went to Gore for an Andrew Kabala healing meeting i was praying at the back and could feel angels around me. The Holy Spirit was moving in power praise the lord. About 50 people came to the lord and many people got healed.” “In Queenstown, got to share about Jesus again – a sister joined our eternal family today. Got snow again! God is wonderful and he loves you.” In the Philippines they prayed at a hospital for a friend‘s brother, Frederick, who was in an accident and a man bashed his head against some concrete. The doctors were worried about a crack in his skull and internal bleeding. We prayed for him and afterwards he said the pain had fully gone!!!!! We heard yesterday the resulting x-ray showed no problems, and he was cleared to be released from hospital. Also in the Philippines, they preached amazingly and gave a testimony ~afterward 15 people gave their lives to Christ and we saw people healed of fevers, multiple areas of pain, a woman struggling to walk had all the pain leave from her clubbed foot... Jesus, you are so amazingly good to us! Thanks for reading please feel free to email me at lil_rae_of _sunshine@hotmail.com if you would like to encourage me or help me out in anyway.